2 Timothy 1:13-14 (The Message)
So keep at your work, this faith and love rooted in Christ, exactly as I set it out for you. It’s as sound as the day you first heard it from me. Guard this precious thing placed in your custody by the Holy Spirit who works in us.
This year, I got two baby nieces. They are THE. BEST. There aren’t many things I’ll just drop anything for, but a FaceTime call from one of my sisters is one of those things — because I know there’s a smiling baby girl on the other side of that call. I’m SO thankful that technology makes seeing their faces an option. It makes living thousands of miles away so much easier.
I love everything about being “Aunt Sarie.” I can’t wait until they’re old enough to really know me. And for as much as I love being an aunt, there is something in their little faces that always makes me think about the boy I thought I’d be watching grow up at the same time as them.
The younger of the two girls, Charis, was born on September 14. It was a Monday morning, and I woke up at 6:30 am to a FaceTime call from my sister Stephanie, wanting me to get to be one of the first people to meet her. It was the sweetest wake up call. She was perfect, and Steph somehow looked amazing for having just given birth.
After a few minutes of ooh-ing and aww-ing over her, I got off the phone and I just wept. I wasn’t sure if it was ache from being so far away or ache from the reality that both of their girls were officially here, and my boy was with Jesus. I’m sure it was a little of both — but I remember telling God, “Abba, I need a word from you this morning. I miss my family. I miss my boy. Either way I look at it, I feel empty handed.”
I felt like He told me to read 2 Timothy. The thing about Paul’s letters to Timothy is that they’re sort of a pep talk for hard times. Paul tells Timothy, in a nutshell, to be bold. Be brave. Endure the fight and the race set before him, because it’s worth it.
When I got to verses 13-14 in 2 Timothy 1, I stopped. Guard this precious thing placed in your custody by the Holy Spirit. The version I was reading at the time said, “Guard the good deposit entrusted to you.”
There I was feeling empty handed, and there God was to remind me that He has entrusted something to me in the spirit that is meant to be given away to His people.
Because everything that’s given to us by Him is meant to be given away.
So we press on. We boldly carry the things He’s given us to carry and we trust that it’s worth every bit of suffering it might cost us.
Maybe we’re empty handed, but we’re definitely not forsaken. And somehow when we choose to just keep trusting Him, we always have something to give.
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